I know I don’t post many serious things, but ok.
Today was.. interesting. I went up to UNCA today for admitted students day. I love it there. I couldn’t imagine being in a position where I couldn’t go to my first choice of school. I’m fortunate.
I’m not going to try to be grammatically correct in this because for this post it really isn’t necessary. I just woke up and a couple of extra commas or periods won’t matter.
Introduction was a downer. I got reminded that I wasn’t quite good enough for a scholarship, but I got to see everyone that was. Half of them probably won’t even go to UNCA; they will probably go somewhere more “prestigious,” like UNC. It’s frustrating.
And about going somewhere “better”.. what makes it that way? Is it the name? Maybe, if you have strict parents and family and friends to impress. But that’s not what choosing a college is about. Choosing a college is about finding an environment in which people relate to you live. Even if I had gotten accepted into a “better” college like UNC, I wouldn’t go. It’s not going to be the college that makes you who you are. It will be the people that you choose to surround yourself with and the things that you decide to involve yourself in.
My model lecture was sort of a waste; there were people sleeping.
Right before lunch I caught up with a girl that I’ve been talking to over Facebook about becoming roommates. I was really worried about making a good impression. I think I cussed like, twice. That’s sort of a record for me. I feel like I showed her the “weird” sides of me, but still there’s a lot more to who I am than what she saw. It’s not like it’s bad; I don’t have any secrets, like I eat people (we covered that today.) It’s just that I know that there’s more to me and I know that there’s more to her. But it’s incredibly hard to put the bad stuff out there - the insecurities, failures, bad choices, things that make you sad or disappointed. That’s the stuff that scares people away, and nobody wants to deal with the possibility of scaring someone away.
This whole process..It’s like having to re-make friends all over again. It’s a hell of a scary process when you’re completely stepping out of your comfort zone with no close friends to stand by your side. When you’re around new people, you don’t want to say too much and seem annoying but you can’t let someone think that you’re boring. You don’t want to hurt anybody by stating your opinion. Do you really even get to know someone until you completely put yourself out there for the entire world to see? What a scary thought.
Okay, back on track. At the end of the day I caught up with a tour group (after almost having an asthma attack and downplaying it successfully.) I think that I’ve decided which dorm that I want to live in. I really hope it all works out.
Nobody tells you that this part—stepping out into the real world—is so difficult. I wish that somebody would’ve warned me.
[Flash 10 is required to watch video]
OH. MY. GOD.
brb tickling a penguin.
just wondering where the fuck did you get a penguin LOL
<3
It has been confirmed that Robert Sheehan will not be a part of the Season 3 cast for Misfits. They are going make a webisode that writes him out of the show and add a new character named Rudy.
99 years ago today, Titanic sailed for her ill fated voyage.
Her First and Last..
2 years before my granny was born..
“If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. Because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn’t love another. There are four questions of value in life… What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.”
- Johnny Depp
